I plan on stop drinking on weeknights. I want to do this to improve not only my health, but my mental health. Its gonna be tough as fuck and I'm gonna have slip-ups, but I can do this.
I don't normally post person stuff like this, but today is my mom's birthday. She was born 72 years ago today. But, this birthday is different than the previous 71. Because this time she's not here to celebrate with us. My mom passed away in January after a 4+ year battle with cancer. Honestly, today is the most emotion I've felt about her death since it happened. My brother and I are hosting a dinner in her honor with family and friends. We're doing it on her birthday and making it a "birthday party" because she didn't want a "celebration of life".
I have an update on this. Closure, if you will. Unhappy Closure though.I've gotten confirmation through police reports and the county jail roster.
It was a murder suicide attempt. The murder was successful, the suicide was not. Boyfriend/Girlfriend. I knew the both of them. They were coworkers and I considered them friends. One of my other coworkers is taking it much worse since he lived with them.
He's being charged with 2nd Degree murder and Assisted Suicide.
It's a really dark day not just for me, or my store, but the whole town. I feel worse for her kids who now don't have a mother, and are stuck with an abusive father.
I hate life and how cruel it is.
I don't normally post person stuff like this, but today is my mom's birthday. She was born 72 years ago today. But, this birthday is different than the previous 71. Because this time she's not here to celebrate with us. My mom passed away in January after a 4+ year battle with cancer. Honestly, today is the most emotion I've felt about her death since it happened. My brother and I are hosting a dinner in her honor with family and friends. We're doing it on her birthday and making it a "birthday party" because she didn't want a "celebration of life".
Are you still doing better, I hope?Thank you so much, I needed this right now,
Yup, I am 100% right. I am projecting feelings onto him that he doesn't really feel. I have a bad issue doing this with people. We talked about it and it really all was in my head.I am very worried about my relationship right now. We have been long distance for a while, but he is acting weird. He won't answer certain questions I ask, normally about my medication or more intimate things. He insists nothing is wrong, but I am feel like something is seriously wrong.
But it could just be all in my head. Kevin and I both have serious psychological disorders. He has severe clinical depression and I have depression, OCD and schizotypal personality disorder. Kevin often cannot sleep and at one point was awake for 7 days straight.
The reason I am putting this here is because this could all be in my head. I mean, he is very affectionate. But it is weird how he ignores certain questions about certain subjects.
Maybe the long distance thing is making my depression and anxiety worse. With my personality disorder, it actually is the perfect relationship. But perhaps it isn't for him.
Again though, it can all be in my head. I spend all day thinking and thinking and thinking. I very often project feelings on other people and I might be doing that here.
Does anyone else do that?